Saturday Night

Well its been another week and hopefully I am another week stronger. I know my son is and that is a good thing. He got a little turned around and is finally my Robb again. Frank is in Montreal until next Thursday he left Friday morning. So I am keeping busy starting to decorate for Christmas. I am starting to see patterns with myself and into the third week when the chemo bloat has lessened, I can taste food again, I'm not ADHD on the steroids I start to whine that I have to go through it all over again. I know there are people worse off then me and try to count blessings but usually a meltdown happens and thankfully it was just over the pool which seems funny now.
I went to an exercise class at the YMCA for Breast Cancer Survivors and women like myself going through the chemo, some going soon for reconstruction. It was hard at first I was almost late for the class so I walked into a room and all eyes looked at me. This was hard and I wanted to cry but I didn't. I never thought in a million years I would be a part of this group. But I'm here and I'm trying to go through this with humour good attitude. There is alot of progress for all Cancers now, I will kick the ass out of this.
I don't know if I told this story but my grandmother Jarvis had a friend who was diagnosed with Breast Cancer 30 years ago. She had her breast removed and lived another 4 years. This lady was 91 when she had her breast removed. She is one of my heroes and I think of her when I have a bad moment. When my sister Judy calls and I'm having a bad day she says Ok Sue you can have a bad day but it doesn't have to be a bad week so snap out of it. I thank God for her.
So many are holding my hand through this, Thank You.
I will end with this last week I was getting ready for an everning and started to cry because nothing fit, Frank was on the bed watching Golf, I walk in crying, then I caught a look at myself in the mirror. The tears were streaming down exactly in th e middle of my cheeks. I looked at Frank and said "look honey I'm crying like the actresses", we both cracked up.