Well Id don't want this anymore. Wednesday after the surgery I should be cancer free. Its the most scared I have ever been in my life. I am positive and eternally optimistic most of the time. I don't know how to feel other then scared. tonight. Frank won't be here and it sucks for me, but its worse for him and I know that. He will be here in Spirit, we have a love that is rare and we cherish it.
My vanity comes in handy right now knowing he won't see me at my worst. Surgery sucks and anesthesia is worse. There I pulled out my humour. I feel better already. I knew blogging would be the great catharthis for me. I hope thats the right word. God I have a huge ego. OK OK enough from me today.
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you aren't vain, you are human!! I'd be more worried about you if you weren't scared...I am sad you have to walk this, but know you aren't alone and that your tremendous strength and courage will get you through this. And it takes both of those to feel it all. Feel it all.When I had to walk through my darkness I always had a vision of the swamp and that lilies grow there. There can be tremendous beauty in those dark places too.
ReplyDeleteSending you much love and support!! Frode
Sue if I can be of any help at all,from one who has gone down this road, please don't hesitiate to let me know. Remember "a woman is like a teabag - she does not know her full strength until she is placed in hot water" xo Janice
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